Let's the emotions flow

To: Victoria Charleston

From: Hunter Smith

Subject: Hey Sweetheart

I still cannot get you off my mind. I know I need to be more professional about our situation but you've left an incredible impression on me. Was that your intention??? I hope your day is going wonderfully so far.

To: Hunter Smith

From: Victoria Charleston

Subject: Nothing bad can come from this

Hey Babe,

I told you before that I want you to be happy and satisfied. Think about me, lust about me, desire to be with me. We don't have to manage this like our careers. Let the emotions flow, as scary as that seems. Remember nothing bad can come from this. It's good to know that you are enjoying me. It will make our meetings even more special.

You are on my mind too. I cannot lie. I replay our time together often. Especially our pillow talks.

V

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Hunter and I have sent tens of dozens of emails to each other that have described our feelings but these particular emails left me feeling light and happy. I'm nervous with excitement about the ideal of Hunter thinking about me. Imagining him thinking about me while he is on his way to work or drifting off to sleep. I couldn't hardly wait for the next date, cause I wanted to be with him. Touch him, smile at him, talk to him. Looking at myself in the reflection of the taxi's window I knew what was going on. The signs are there. There are feeling growing inside me for Hunter. I thought about Hunter too, a lot if I'm truthful. It's fun having someone send you sexy emails and call you at night to say good night. My mind is telling me that those are the things that boyfriend's do but with my career I don't have time for a boyfriend. I like having a "part-time" boyfriend, if that's what I will call Hunter. I know that its crazy for me to develop feelings but why not? As long as I don't have the expectations that he will leave his wife then I'm okay. Right?

But more important then having feelings for him I'm starting to like him as a person. The guilt of lying to him about me being married is starting to weigh on me. Since we are developing a friendship Hunter would ask me questions about my husband and our background together. I answered his questions but they are all lies. What if by chance he found out that I wasn't married? Then what? I've thought about coming clean and telling him the truth but that thought left quickly. How do I get out of a fake marriage? I didn't want to call Maya or Rachel and ask for their advice just yet. Mostly, everything I've done with Hunter has been about my instinct and I want to continue that. If I chose to tell him that I'm not married it would be based off my own decision.

These thoughts continued to run through my head as I walked up the step to my apartment from the gym. My phone began to vibrate looking down I saw a text message Tim Cox. Tim and I went on a couple of dates a few years back but nothing developed. We met through mutual friends. He wasn't my type and I wasn't his type. We still talk and hangout every now and then.

Tim: Hey u. What's new? I have an extra ticket to the major concert next week. Want to go?

Victoria: YES!!!

This should be fun. I always have a great time with Tim. My mind wondered back to Hunter, leaving Tim and the concert as a memory. We set up another date early next week. Whatever my decision was about annulling my fake marriage it had to be done soon.