End Results

Previously on Thoughts of a Mistress

I felt completely guilty about having an affair with a married man. Plus I thought I was pregnant. (Guilty)

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I made an appointment with my doctor cause I need to know some important information. I'm sleeping with two different guy. I'm not going to try and sugar coat that. One whom I've known for a couple of months and the other one I've know for years, but never in a sexual way.

I realized that I started my relationship off with Tim by lying and cheating on him with Hunter. Or was I cheating on Hunter with Tim? Hmmmm.

Over the last couple of days I had been thinking of cutting everything off with Hunter. Why continue the relationship with him? I have a boyfriend. What more do I want? But there is something about Hunter. Our relationship was just that “our relationship”. I didn't have to worry about whether or not we would get married or any other relationship baggage. I could just be.

As my doctor walked into the room. It felt like a rock was a the bottom of my stomach.

“Are you ready?” My doctor asked. Nodding my head yes, I opened my mouth. My doctor inserted a oversize Q-tip in my mouth and swabbed the inside of my cheek.

“We will have your HIV test results in about 30 minutes.”

I use condoms every time with both Hunter and Tim. I'm currently on birth control. The pregnancy scared me straight. But I was doing this for me. I knew that I was going to continue the relationship with Hunter. Not only was he my lover but he has become my friend. The end result is that I want both of them in my life. Selfish I know, but I do.

30 minutes later my doctor escorted me to her office with the results of my test. Inside she told me that my test came back negative. I exhaled all the air that I had been holding for the last thirty minutes.